Labour day..

Today is Labour day.. Public holiday for many people.. I start my 1st of may having two fish burger + one big cup of ice lemon tea + fries @ mac. Watched Iron man.. The first time i watch a movie so late or to say early in the morning? Haha.. movie start at 1.30am(stated on the ticket) but when go in the preview and advert is like 20 min lo.. so the actual time start is 1.50am... the movie is nice la.. can watch... 2 hour movie.. therefore end at 3.50am.. then come out chit chat a bit.. 4am flag a cab and reach home 4.30am..

When reach home, take shower and sit in the living room. thinking of her agian.. I really miss her very much.. Althought im making myself look very busy, went out watching movie, eat. but i still cant get her out from my mind.. everything i see happening around i will link to her.. When i see couple holding hand , i will think of when can we like them hold hand and go shopping together. when i see family in the restaurant i will think of in the future, we will bring our kids out shopping together.. HAHAHHAHHAAH..so Stupid right..?Everyday im worry about her weather she eat her breakfast o not. How is she doing in school. weather she go home late at night. how is her day today.. so many more thing..

she is getting busy and busier.. so the chance for me to meet her is lesser.. so sad.. she is busy with her school work. should i at the same time concentrate on my study and do well aslo. i remember the first time when i say i want to chase her. she turn me down and ask me to concentrate on my study.. Yes i did.. after that i got my MCP.. with her motivation i really can study very hard... is this the power of love? may be..

May be i really need concentrate in my studies.. but without her motivation i feel so weak to move on.. really wish to keep in touch with her.. wish that she will be there listening to me when im stress. of cuz i also wish that she will talk to me when she is not happy or stress at school..so that we can motivate each other..

i know i cant hope much now as both of us need to study, but what i wish now is only that we can keep in touch.. thats all.. please dont avoid me girl.. i really do miss u alots.. :s

Sitting in the living room for 2 hours all thinking of her before went to bed at 7am.. sleep for few hour and wake up at 1 pm.. now still a bid dizzy.. but this is nothing compare the feeling of missing her.. heart is beating slow and heavy..

later tonight should i go out meet the same person again yesterday..spend money and eat lots.. thats the only way not to think of her so much.. hmm.. in planning.. ok.. i go sleep agian now.. later might go out meet them again.. sui sing zai jian. haha..